FREAK OUT

Friday morning I left Belize on the boat to Honduras. The ride took a lot longer than we all thought, no surprise there really, and I didn´t get into La Ceiba until 930, a good 13 hour adventure.
I planned on spending a couple nights in La Ceiba first and maybe doing a rafting thing but met a group of people going to Utila in the morning so figured why not join.
When we got to the island you are attacked by people from every dive school trying to get you to sign up with them. I really had NO intention of diving because Ive been unsure about whether I feel comfortable doing it but I gave in to the peer pressure and signed up (idiot!).
It was just me and this german guy taking the class and after reading the book and watching the videos and blah blah blah I was kinda excited. Then this morning came around and we got our equipment, put it together, took it apart etc etc. Then got in the water. I HATE BREATHING OUT OF MY MOUTH! I know its stupid and most people probably get used to it but I SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY HATE IT. The asthma means I shouldn´t dive anyway and breathing through my mouths just freaks me out. Plus Im fucking skinny as fuck and I was barely floating even with my BCD fully inflated and was just not comfortable. After about 5minutes of swimming around getting used to the regulator (or not in my case) he says we´re going down. NOOOOOOO I told him I wasnt ready yet and really didnt want to but NOpe I was going down whether I liked it or not. So naturally I freaked out. I felt totally trapped. I stayed under for a few breaths, trying to calm myself down but it just wasn´t working. I came up and I will Never dive again.
AHhhh Im cringing thinking about it. Im sure its wonderful but it just gives me the creeps. Then I freaked out a bit in my room later thinking I have the bends but thats just me and my paranoid nature. Im fine.  
I dont even like swimming or snorkeling that much and at least now I know I really dont like diving. But now I feel like the black sheep of Utila because everyone here is diving and LOVES diving. Plus the weather has been shit so I need a new plan.

Ok that´s my rant. I feel better now but I think I´m going to have nightmares of being trapped underwater.